Friday, December 3, 2010

This prettymuch sums it up.
we love, we lose, we forgive, we move on, and sometimes wish we could forget. but if we could forget, then we couldnt learn from it. we make misteaks, not intentionally, but they do end up teaching us something.

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Thursday, September 2, 2010


"life isnt about waiting for the storm to pass. Its about learning how to dance in the rain"

Maybe problems wont totally go away but we can learn to deal, forget, and move on. Life is kinda short and theres no time to waste on waiting. Sometimes life can seem like a total trainwreck (im sure we have all been there at some point) but nothing stays bad forever. :3

Friday, August 20, 2010


"Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will."

Wednesday, July 7, 2010


im sorry sometimes i may get a little jelous thinking that someone else could make you happier than i could. i guess its just my insecurities acting up. maybe its because i know im not the prettiest the smartest or most fun and exciting girl but i do know that no matter how hard and long you look... you will never find somebody that loves you like i do.
"nothing in the universe can stop you from letting go and starting over"


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i cant say i know who i am... or what my place in life is.. or what exactally im looking to find. sometimes i cant even trust my own decisions. sometimes i just wanna go somewhere far far away... but the farther i go..i would only be going farther and farther away from you and thats not what i want at all. i guess im just better off staying here and facing all my problems and stuff like that. everything seems so difficult. but we will make it. we will find a way.. even when there seems like there isnt one. there always is. no matter what. you just have to look hard enough.

Monday, July 5, 2010




"I'll sing along to every song I'll tag along for the ride Cause in my head, I'm right there too,Through the good times The bad ones too I'm here for you Cause in my dreams You're the one who keeps me asleep On the nights where I can care less If I ever woke up again " and if nothing lasts forever... will you be my nothing?? right now..i guess i just cant find the right words to say and i dun know what to think. at a loss for words maybee??

Sunday, July 4, 2010


" it well may be that we will never meet again in this lifetime.. so let me say before we part so much of me is made of what i learned from you. you'll be with me like a handprint on my heart and now whatever way our stories end, i know you have re-written mine by being my friend."

"and then i felt sad because i realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they cant ever be fixed. and this is something that nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older. and you see the people in your life break one by one . you wonder when your turn is going to be or if it has already happened"

Friday, July 2, 2010


imperfection is beauty. madness is genius. and its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. and when it comes down to it, i let them think what they want. if they care enough to bother with what i do then im already better than them. is this the way we get by sometimes?

I miss the way my heart skips a beat when i hear your voice i miss the way my world lit up when you entered the room i miss the way your hand always found mine i miss the way my head fit your shoulder just perfect i miss the long phone calls that lasted late into the nighti miss it all.....the way your hair hung in your eyes the way you'd make me feel so special id cry the way you youd say my name the way you said i love you i miss you and everything you do.... so lets chill soon??

Wednesday, June 30, 2010


i was waiting for the longest time she said. i thought you forgot. its hard to forget he said when there is such an empty space when you are gone. me without you is like A&F without the moose. coach purses without their C's. pointless. if i could tell you one thing i guess it would be that i love hearing your voice and that your smile just happens to brighten my entire day.

Monday, June 28, 2010


love is when you feel like you can never spend enough time with another person. we hardly get to hang out with eachother but im still happy anyway. i guess its just because im happy i have you♥
today was quite a fantastic day♥
"and if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them too, even when your in the dark. even when your falling."


They Both Fell In Love with each other But neither one was brave enough to ADMIT THE TRUTH Simply because neither one was willing to lose their Friendship.

Thursday, June 24, 2010


Can we pretend that airplanes In the night sky Are like shooting stars I could really use a wish right now
if i had one wish right now, i would wish for you to be here. i also wish that i could play guitar and ride a skateboard. i guess those are some of the things that i will eventually get around to teaching myself one day.

"life is a series of pulls back and fourth. you want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. something hurts you, yet you know it shouldnt. you take certain things for granted, even though you know you should never take anything for granted. you really dont realize what you have until its gone."

Monday, June 21, 2010


i hope everything turns out to be okay. i try to tell myself that everything happens for a reason. lately though i dont really know what to think about anything. it will all be okay.
“Everything happens for a reason. Every action has a reaction. Always remember that whats meant to be will always find a way to come about.”

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." — marilyn monroe

Monday, June 14, 2010


"I don't know why you're on my mind so much lately. Guess I just wish I still had someone to talk to. Truth be told I haven't thought about you in a long time because I didn't see the point. But for some reason these things all keep rushing back to me and the more I remember, the more stupid I feel. Think about it, it seems so long ago now doesn't it? I always had this conviction in my mind that it doesn't matter because one day it'll all fall back into place, but the future's so big that I just don't see it happening. You're a really great person, truly. I hope you're happy"

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two." -St. Augustine
this quote makes me think. i like thinking sometimes.. but it really depends on what im thinking about lol:)

"you have to take the good with the bad, smile when youre sad, love what youve got and remember what you had. always forgive but never forget, learn from your misteaks but never regret. people change, things go wrong, just remember life goes on. we navigate our whole lives using words. change and improve the words and i believe we can change and improve life"

Sunday, June 13, 2010


"everyone says that love hurts but thats not true. losing someone hurts. rejection hurts. everyone confuses these things with love. but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us feel wonderful again. "
"In a snitch like this You gotta think and I don't think you Think about the way he thinks And I know you live life For yourself But it all comes down to The way you help And I know your life is such a hell You wake up early and you work until The hours blend and your thoughts All haunt your hopes, your dreams Your everything And I have a question: What is love?What is love? Is it giving up?'Cause that's not how you Raised me, yeah."

and when she looked at him.. she realized she didnt see him.. but someone else that she couldnt seem to get over. she then realized that this someone was the one she should be with forever. (did you follow this super short story okay??)

Saturday, June 12, 2010


this morning..i just cant stop smiling.. how unusual.. lol:) i feel like the luckiest person on earth.. we shall see how long this lasts.:)

"You make me happy, whether you know it or not We should be happy, that's what I said from the start I am so happy, knowing you are the one That I want for the rest of my days For the rest of my daysYou're all of my days.You're lookin' so cool, you're lookin' so fly I can't deny that when I'm staringYou down, right dead in the eyeI wanna try to be the person you want The person you need It's hard to conceive That somebody like you could be with Someone like me"

Friday, June 11, 2010


" and when i first met you, i never would have imagined that i would have such strong feelings for you. i never would have thought that i would have dreams about you or miss being by your side or get butterflys in my stomach when someone mentions your name. when i first met you i never would've thought that i would love you" and this is exactally how i feel♥


"You're everything to me No more as I wake From this perfect dream...I'll escape from Eden's walls Can I not stay and live this lie? For I must think only of myself And to think that you will not be scared Or surprised I severed all these ties This is the end I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight Help me get over you
I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight Help me get over you One last false apology Help me get over you"

btw this picteur has nothing to do with the quote but i love it anyways♥

"if the world ended today, would you really be proud of yourself? 20 years from now you will be more dissapointed by the things you didnt do than by the ones you did.sail away from the safe harbor. explore. dream. discover♥"

Wednesday, June 9, 2010


"the way to keep someone alive is to never stop loving them. buildings burn. people die. its just life. but true love lives forever"

"to me, true love is the sweetest thing in life. thats why were either in love or looking for love. sometimes you have to work for it- especially when life gets in the way- but i believe true love is always worth fighting for."

" the minute i heard my first love story, i started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was. lovers dont finally meet somewhere. their in eachother all along. "

"its crazy right? to love someone who's hurt you. its crazier to think that someone who hurt you loves you"

"i dont love you. im just passing the time. you could love me if i knew how to lie. who could love me? i am out of my mind." <-- this quote makes no sense to me but i like it :)

Sunday, June 6, 2010

"I ran outside to watch you drive away from me. And my eyes, they won't believe. My heart is trying desperately to beat. And lately I'm speeding up my breathing. And my hands are shaking all the time. 'Cause I don't want to let you go. And I can't sleep or breathe when I'm alone. If I could just go back in time,I wouldn't make the same mistakes; if I could just go back in time. i ♥ weatherstarr
yeayea this is true. today..hmm... i wondered how they get those little m's on the m&m's. loll. and i went to a flag football game. im really not into sports but whatever. did you think i was getting somewhere with this post??

"You've got it going on
and I think that you should know
I like the way you move and the things you do
yeah all the things you do
And it's the feeling I get inside
that keeps me up at night
Cause every time I see you baby
it drives
me crazy
and you don't even know
and everything you do or say
feels so far away
but I just wish that you would stay"

Saturday, June 5, 2010


" i hope we could spend more time together. a few hours is better than never. if we could only make it longer. a whole day would be fine. a whole week would be fine. a whole month would be fine. a whole year would be fine. forever would be fine♥"
i honestly want to forget about today. its just that some things in life are really not worth remembering. i dont live in the past so its time to move on.

Friday, June 4, 2010

nOtE to sElf: i miss you♥
"i wanna run, but only far enough to make you miss me"
"maybe i'll just find someone exactally like you and force myself to believe its you until i can no longer tell the difference"...but then i realize..that nobody in the entire world can replace you



yayyy 11 followers people♥ this makes meh happyy♥

"Were young. We wont always be able to relax and be kids but we’ll always be able to love. So im gonna get out there and live it up and leave my mark, make a difference because in 5 years we will want to rewind but we cant. So stop worrying about that boy. Now is the time of our lives. Lets make misteaks and not care. Memories that will never fade. Live it up and live it crazy. We are only young once. Lets screw this up right. Drop the drama and never question your actionns. I have history to make.♥ "


Wednesday, June 2, 2010

and for now its not cuz i dont have anymore random ideas like i usually do. whatevs..
i like dinosaurs. cupcakes and robots are totalleh uhdoruhbul. i got to leave school early todayy.. arent you jelous. teehee♥ i was just thinking about the post it monster from a livelavalive vid. ohmann. funnyfunny sthuff.

wait!!!!! one question...how am i supposed to know whats comming tommorow?
somedays, music is the only escape
"Today was misery And I just can't believe this happened And I finally broke down, held onto my heart But now my only star is falling Its burning to the ground Now I'm crying out Secret love, my escape Take me far far away Secret love, are you there Will you answer my prayer Please take me anywhere but here Anywhere but here You're all I've got right now No one else figures out this feeling And how lonely it can get These words can cut right through Cause all along I've knew you're sorry but you haven't said it yet But now I won't forget" ♥mayday parade♥

Thursday, May 27, 2010

eh story of my life much??
"If what you see by the eye dosent please you then close your eyes and see from your heart. because the heart can see beauty and love more than the eyes can ever wonder"
i dun wanna lose all the people i love. that wouldnt be good at all.
im sitting around, listening to the thunder and lightning outside wondering what to type. *over exagerated sigh* today was okay i guess aside from all the drama at school. theres way too much drama for such as small school. everybody talks crap on eachother and people skip school because of it. i am not one to talk about other people though.. well maybe sometimes. its clearly insane, may i point out. wow its really thundering outside. and now i think why im in this crap school. i had it all before i went out and messed it all up. i used to go to a school i loved ( makes you think about how many people you know that love school. you dont really realize what you have until its gone. hence my story.) and i had a bf that actually cared about me. everyone wants to be cared about. its just life i guess. but one saying that i dont quite have a grasp on is this one "if you cant love yourself,,, you wont be able to love anyone else." and i found out that this statement is flawed and not true. but now im just wondering what went wrong. i need to get out of this stupid drama filled school and fix this whole mess that is now a part of my life. since im so determined about everything, i know i can do it. note that you may know nothing about me just by reading my blog. but you know you like it that way. LoLL

by the way... you just lost the game. i lost the game today... once i started thinking about how i lost the game. lol sometimes i surprise myself at how random i can be.
"surrounded by familiar faces, the people that you love to see, where everybody knows your name and their smiling. we may not be getting younger, our days may be slipping away. yeah were still so young so we'll PARTYY like its our last day."
i love quotes that make no sense.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Yesterday was my birthdayee!!! im finally 16!! holluh!!!
everything happens for a reason. at the time, we may not know what the reason is but eventually, it starts to make sense.

Sunday, May 23, 2010



This summer is coming to a close And I'm starting to figure out That I cannot live without you I hope you're thinking of me 'Cause all the stars above me sing your name I'll never be the same again. So please don't forget to call me Just to let me know You're doing okay, miles away from me

Sunday, May 2, 2010

"Everyone in this town is seeing somebody else. Everybody's tired of someone our eyes wander for help. Prayers that need no answer now I'm tired of who I am. You were my greatest mistake I fell in love with your sin Your littlest sin.Was this over before...before it ever began?Your kiss, your calls, your crutch Like the devil's got your hand This was over before Before it ever began Your lips, your lies, your lustLike the devil's in your hands" i love anberlin♥♥

"majority of the time i keep things to myself. not because im afraid of making a fool out of myself but because most people now days just wont understand me."
i had a pretty good weekend. went to a party where i hardly knew anyone but it was fun. and to peoples houses nd stuff like that. :D i like smiley faces. it feels like nobody could possibly understand me sometimes. sometimes i dont even understand myself but its all good. sometimes we just have to put on a smile and pretend were fine. :)

Thursday, April 22, 2010


im a lover and a fighter. i get angry easily but i am working on it. i party. sleep. and think too much. but i get my sthuff done. i have a weakness for sweettalkers but im learning and enforcing my boundaries. i dont let many people in but once their in, their in forever. im strong and independant and ive been broken but never shattered.
but i guess the real question really is... can i trust you?

Friday, April 16, 2010

I must admit that this is true sometimesss. fer sherrr
"For a single moment i want to feel like the universe isnt about to crush me and my heart isnt about to explode. I would kiss you and tell you i love you and ask you pleasee not to go."

Wednesday, April 14, 2010


"My butterfly, I’m happy when you’re with me. You’re everything I need, and everything I see. These broken wings, will guide our love through the sky. And take us away from these nightmares… And these broken wings, they make you taste so sweet. Candy canes and kisses when I fall asleep. Rainbows and wishes, you take me away. To another place, so far away. So far away." i loveeee brokencyde♥♥
I have never been so happy about something in my life.. although this has nothing to do with this picteur.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

"Come and listen shallow ears of every boy and every girl this is a story of a girl who a made a boy her entire world you love you lose the love you lost and gave up everything to have now hes her everything but he left her and now she has nothing left"

Friday, April 2, 2010

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

103rd post

"Dear Best Friend, i love you more daily. i wish you could see yourself the way i see you and i wish you could love yourself the way i love you. and above all, i wish your life is everything you deserve because in my opinion you deserve the world. i will stand by you forever. my heart will always belong to you"
(i thought this was adorable)

"listen to the music. and just dance"