eh story of my life much??

"If what you see by the eye dosent please you then close your eyes and see from your heart. because the heart can see beauty and love more than the eyes can ever wonder"

i dun wanna lose all the people i love. that wouldnt be good at all.

im sitting around, listening to the thunder and lightning outside wondering what to type. *over exagerated sigh* today was okay i guess aside from all the drama at school. theres way too much drama for such as small school. everybody talks crap on eachother and people skip school because of it. i am not one to talk about other people though.. well maybe sometimes. its clearly insane, may i point out. wow its really thundering outside. and now i think why im in this crap school. i had it all before i went out and messed it all up. i used to go to a school i loved ( makes you think about how many people you know that love school. you dont really realize what you have until its gone. hence my story.) and i had a bf that actually cared about me. everyone wants to be cared about. its just life i guess. but one saying that i dont quite have a grasp on is this one "if you cant love yourself,,, you wont be able to love anyone else." and i found out that this statement is flawed and not true. but now im just wondering what went wrong. i need to get out of this stupid drama filled school and fix this whole mess that is now a part of my life. since im so determined about everything, i know i can do it. note that you may know nothing about me just by reading my blog. but you know you like it that way. LoLL

by the way... you just lost the game. i lost the game today... once i started thinking about how i lost the game. lol sometimes i surprise myself at how random i can be.

"surrounded by familiar faces, the people that you love to see, where everybody knows your name and their smiling. we may not be getting younger, our days may be slipping away. yeah were still so young so we'll PARTYY like its our last day."

i love quotes that make no sense.

Yesterday was my birthdayee!!! im finally 16!! holluh!!!
everything happens for a reason. at the time, we may not know what the reason is but eventually, it starts to make sense.

This summer is coming to a close And I'm starting to figure out That I cannot live without you I hope you're thinking of me 'Cause all the stars above me sing your name I'll never be the same again. So please don't forget to call me Just to let me know You're doing okay, miles away from me

"Everyone in this town is seeing somebody else. Everybody's tired of someone our eyes wander for help. Prayers that need no answer now I'm tired of who I am. You were my greatest mistake I fell in love with your sin Your littlest sin.Was this over before...before it ever began?Your kiss, your calls, your crutch Like the devil's got your hand This was over before Before it ever began Your lips, your lies, your lustLike the devil's in your hands" i love anberlin♥♥

"majority of the time i keep things to myself. not because im afraid of making a fool out of myself but because most people now days just wont understand me."

i had a pretty good weekend. went to a party where i hardly knew anyone but it was fun. and to peoples houses nd stuff like that. :D i like smiley faces. it feels like nobody could possibly understand me sometimes. sometimes i dont even understand myself but its all good. sometimes we just have to put on a smile and pretend were fine. :)